Well, amazingly I did my video this week, despite talking myself out of doing it several times in my head.

Bascially I’ve continued to not even do basics – eat regular meals , do some exercise and drink water. It’s quite shameful really.

I have a fridge stuffed with lovely fresh fruit and vegetables but I’ve been going to my cupboards and wanting to eat the ‘baddest’ things I could find instead. There must be something psychological going on for sure but gawd knows what. What is staggering is that I only put on half a pound. It feels like more and my face is definitely starting to look like good old chipmunk cheeks again.

But hey I knew this wasn’t going to be an easy process for me and what is great is getting the comments from you and hearing about other people’s successes. I know I don’t have as much lard to lose as some – I keep telling myself it is only a stone.. and in fact I’d probably be happy with dropping another 7 – 10 lbs, so why am I not just doing it? *sigh*

I need to get out of my comfort zone I think, in many areas of my life and dare myself more. I’m just finding old habits too easy to sink back into at the moment and hate hearing myself say this sh*t as it’s so borrrrrrrrrrrrrring. Excuses, excuses! *lol* I shall have to give myself a slap round the chops instead.

Things I could do to support myself? hmmm…

* tell myself I only have to run 3 times a week and do some other form of exercise 2 or 3 days – this will make it less boring to do hopefully.

* get together two or three weeks of quick, easy recipes that look great and taste even better that don’t need a dehydrator.. maybe invest in a whizzy chopper thingy

* have a drink of wine at the weekend and eat with friends and family without feeling I’m being ‘bad’. As long as the majority of how I eat supports the way I want to live then that is fine.

* use kind words when I talk to myself – after all, if I don’t love me, who else will? *lol*